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Brave New WorldMy love is tainted by your touch. March 24 温柔除了紧紧的抱着你睡,也就只有妈妈给的安眠药可以让我一觉到天亮.梦都不作.
可你与药一样,都让我养成了依赖性.
热的想吐的时候也想要吃你做的牛排.你每每在沙发上睡着我都一定会抱你回床上去.
其实我喜欢我专心致志看电影时你在旁边叨叨.
"烟抽少,饭多吃".
就像流浪的小狗开始刺牙列嘴凶态百出,一但被驯服后任你打骂.
每每你熟睡后我摸着你的脸荚,看你下意识的把腿缠在我的身上,我都不由自主的回忆起狐狸与小王子的对话.
还记得吗?当年我讲给你的故事:
“我的生活单调乏味：我捉鸡，人捉我。所有的鸡都一模一样，所有的人都一模一样。因此，我感到有些厌烦了。但是，如果你驯服了我，我的生活就会充满欢乐。我会分辨出一种与众不同的脚步声。别的脚步声会叫我躲进洞里去，而唯独你的脚步声会像音乐一样，唤我出洞来。再说，你瞧瞧！你看见那边的麦田了吗？我从来不吃面包，小麦对我毫无用处。麦田也不会使我产生任何联想。这是多么可悲啊！但是，你又一头金黄色的头发。一旦你驯服了我，那将是多么美好啊！那金黄色的小麦会使我想起你来。于是就连那滚动在麦浪里的风声，也会叫我喜欢听的……” 是阿.
你驯服了我
November 01 the end of automata In the game of life and evolution, there are three players at the table:
human beings, nature, and machines.
I am firmly on the side of nature, but nature, I suspect, is on the side of the machines.
if the 70-years life is absurd. the infinite life is infinitely absurd
All moveables of wonders, from all parts
Are here -Albinos, painted Indians,Dwarfs.
the Horse of Knowledge, and the learned Pig,
The stone-eater, the man that swallows fire,
Giants, Ventriloquists, the Invisible Girl,
The Bust that speaks and moves its goggling eyes,
The wax-work, clock-work, all the marvellous craft
Of modern Merlins, Wild Beats, Puppet shows,
All out-o'the way, far-fretched, perverted things,
All freaks of nature, all Promethean thoughts
Of man, his dullness, madness, and their feats
All jumbled up together, to compose
A Parliament of Monsters.
---Wordsworth, prelude,1805
October 27 Every define is a confine.when people encounters love,
we are both impressionable innocents needing protection,
and wilful ferals needing control.
Disneyland is presented as imaginary in order to make us believe that the rest is real, when in fact all of Los Angeles and the America surrounding it are no longer real, but of the order of the hyperreal and of simulation. It is no longer a question of a false representation of reality( ideology), but of concealing the fact that the real is no longer real...
Jean Baudrillard
Copernicus, who had the audacity to cliam that the earth revolves around the sun even though it is obvious to all of the spectators standing on the ground that the sun revolves around the earth, and dose so once again.
reality, and our experience of it, are always discontinuous with each other.
Because the faith in the obvious is the very air i breathe, i can never have a pure, unblemished meaning or experience at all.
October 20 满睡了他妈14小时,起床,吃面. 冰箱里拿出CHEESE CAKE,泡个小红茶.
玩玩游戏,给韩松发个短信,和江江通个电话.
打开书,看了一眼.
晚上一定要喝啤酒,和ALBERT聊着天,吃石锅拌饭. 哪次来都说下次可不能再吃石锅拌饭了. 每次来还点.
宝贝LARA拿电视给她妈妈SHOW照片..就忘了和我聊天.
对了.你现在说话越来越甜了,真好.
屋里还不是很乱,再乱点我再收拾,我又想吃你煎的牛排了.外面卖的都没你做的好。
还奢求什么呢.其实我什么都有.
人总是在一次次的挫折绝望里成长的.真正应该做的是感激现在拥有的一切.
还好
我是个虽残破,但依充盈着爱的灵魂.
Tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away And i will never turn away..
<3 October 17 whatsoeverSOUTH PARK IS SO FRICKING HILARIOUS. I WAS PRACTICALLY ROLLING ON FLOOR LAUGHING.
Honey, i offically apologize for returning home late tonite...sry for letting u wry.
To some pathetic wretch:
lately i find out my capacity to be tolerant is seriously............limited.
not to say my personality is distorted , neither aggressive ...i just figured out im not an omnipotent immortal at all, there r certain stuffs i cant bear any longer.....
so dude,dunt push me, there is only one step between honest and hostile.
And to MY dear Lara:
seduce me!!!
seduce me more!!!
October 15 chaotic lunatic你不在的时候烟抽的特别多.你走前放在桌上的4包烟现在只剩下两根了.
我愁着月亮的时候,眼睛总不住的偷瞄门前的那棵树.
落紫色花瓣的树.在那断背羊经常出没的地方.
我之所以偷瞄它,是因为我到现在都不知道它的名字.别人告诉过我几次,总又忘记了.
如此印象深刻的树,如此重要的树.以至于我常常拿它做路标,才不至于每次找不到回家的路.
你有没有时候起这样奇怪的念头.就是当你凝视自己熟悉无比的东西很久时,它会突然间变的陌生了,变的不真实了.
不是说突然面目可憎,但却突然觉得...otherworldly..
就像天天看到紫色花瓣,天天走同样的路,天天闻一样的气味,天天吃一样的东西.
然后有一天醒来望着这一切, 觉得自己从来没活过.
anonymous
我有时候目光呆滞的十分深沉
深沉不是因为我又在思考什么,是因为,我什么都没想.
总觉得走来走去又到了一个永远也回不去的地方.
不过话又说回来了
"回"?
回哪去呢.
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